I have a bible study that I attend for Made To Crave. It is refreshing to study something I am so intimately in touch with, something I’ve craved since I was a baby. Food. But, like most addictions that we face, no matter what that addiction is, the underlying cause is more significant than the actual addiction itself. Mine was a culmination of “things” and “events” that I’d buried and dealt with only by eating them into oblivion. Facing these “things” and “events” is incredibly painful, and incredibly freeing. And it is ongoing.
The ladies I attend this bible study with stated, when I’d said I was having a particularly hard time, we should send a bible verse to one another every single day. I received a couple, but like most things, I’ve learned not to expect more than the cursory. And, frankly, that’s what I got. But, here’s the really cool part – because it’s not about them, it is about me – in continuing to send the bible verses, whatever I’m feeling is what I’m going to work on through God, with God, and alongside God. Quite often I’ll receive a text or message back stating how much that verse helped someone. Now, really, how cool is that? I am quite done with the poor me; nobody takes the time because I’m not worth the time BS. I am worth the time and I am worth the effort. I’m a darn fine woman that is a darn fine mother and a darn fine wife, darn it! (giggle ;) false bravado!) And it’s about time I start to realize that through God’s word. His word has fed me where food could never reach, my soul.
So today is catch up on emails day, as I was out of commission last week. I had a horrible UTI (haven’t had one of those in 20 years!), a sinus infection and my monthly. I was laid flat out with a headache that was absolutely debilitating and a body that was fighting so hard to get rid of the infection that I was barely able to move. My husband has this wonderful boss that allowed him to work from home, while I recouped in bed for 4 days, Mike took care of our little guy (our other little guy was at One Of A Kind VBS for church), and basically was Mr. Mom for a week(ish). I think he is very happy to be back at work today! I kept up my bible verses that week. It would sometimes take me hours on my phone to find a verse, study it, study me, retype it, send it to myself, and then prepare it for those I share it with. It would take me hours because I’d think on it, fall asleep with the phone beside me, wake up, and start over. It was so humbling. To just be present in His word and nothing else.
What I’m learning is this, God is enough, so why aren’t we enough? If we are made in His image, why aren’t we enough? The Lord our God sent His only begotten Son to die for our sins. He, Jesus, chose to die for our sins, and we are forgiven. The way to everlasting life is through Him, and since He already died for us, then why aren’t we enough? It’s like a demented Red Rover, I know, but it’s a valid question, isn’t it? Why aren’t you enough? God loves you, He sent His son, Jesus, to die for you, why aren’t you enough? Meditate on that for a bit, find a bible passage every day. I use Jesus Daily, and also use a couple of free apps on my phone: Daily Verses and Your Version (bible) app. Remember to dig deeply within yourself every day. Every day the Lord just wants your love, nothing more. Just your love, because you are enough.
God’s Blessings my friends ♥
A woman, a mother, a wife learning to trust in Christ as she steps out of what has been her "norm."
